Today , I just came back from the meditation retreat. This is the first day after retreat where I can use my computer. The experience and knowledge of retreat is still fresh in my mind. I thought I would come up with a post before the experience fade away once I begin to interact with the outside world.
Stage of Annapanasati .
- First stage is to see the nostril which is called annapanasati.
- Second stage we see the area below the nose and above the upper lip.
- Mind gets concentrated in the area where it makes itself sharp
- This is the stage of samadhi
Stage of Vipassana
- After this stage the awareness is moved through the whole body in standard fashion one fixed pattern. The target of this thing being fixed is not to leave any organs behind. This is the stage of vipassana.
- We learn to note 2 types of sensation.
- Subtle sensations which are pleasurable
- Gross sensation which are painful.
- Our reaction to the pleasurable sensations become the ground in which our cravings are observed
- Our reaction to the painful sensations become the ground in which our aversion is observed
- If at all there is any target which can be given to this practice then it is to cultivate equanimity
- Impermanence is the basis in which equanimity is cultivated and grown.
- When there is equanimity then we can see minimal knots or constrictions in our body.
- Raga and Dwesa are the fuels which keep the thought patterns going.
- Continuous supply of this raga and dwesa is established by our reactions to them when they arise. At one moment when raga/dwesa arises and we are not aware of it then it casts some shadow of pleasurable/painful sensation in our body. Our reaction to raga or dwesa is not reaction to them but in fact reaction to these bodily sensations.
- Our reactions become the ground in which seeds of raga and dwesa are cultivated and grown.
- When observed with equanimity non judgmentally then we are not giving ground in which these seeds of raga and dwesa can be cultivated or grow.
- The more we react the more seeds we sow in the field of consciousness
- What we are getting in our mind is the sum total of all these seeds in our subconscious mind.
- Our subconscious mind is actually our body.
- Seeds arise in groups. When a seed of raga arises then it wakes up all other similar seeds of raga too. It is like when one moment is perceived as painful then it makes us remember all other moments where we have perceived as painful.
- Seeing the impermanent nature of all bodily sensations teaches us to see that the final shadow of these raga and dwesa is impermanent. However painful or pleasurable they might be.
- Our whole body is made up of tiny little waves.
- Sensations which we perceive as gross and painful is actually made up of tiny little waves too. But due to aggregative nature of our mind their constituents are difficult to see.
- Components of manas are four , one of them is sangya which judges any perception as painful or pleasurable , another is bisaya , another is bedana which produces the bodily sensations …
Stage of bliss
- In may be fourth day in the afternoon seating my body felt like huge. It filled the whole room. I could feel my legs being large like that of elephant. Hands were large too. In fact whole body was huge. I was like taking huge amount of air and throwing out huge amount of air too.
- In the sixth day I felt like my spine was really long. It was so long that my head was on the ceiling. I could imagine I was observing the ground from really above.
Stage of metta
- The last stage is the stage of metta or loving kindness. In this stage we spread whatever we have gained from the retreat to the outside world. We share all our dharma with every living organisms in the world. In this stage I could feel some constrictions in my heart area. I was oozing out some pure feeling. At the end of this seating there were tear drops in my eyes. I was experiencing both sadness and happiness in extreme.
Thank you for reading this far
May peace be with you